some days are like razor blades.

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I don't really want to talk about not passing the UPCAT. I mean, there's nothing else to say except for: it hurts, it sucks, and it makes you hate everything. 

But I came across this in one of my drafts the other day.

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And this is one of the hardest times. 

You give and take away

You give and take away

But my heart will choose to say

Lord, blessed be Your name

Blessed by Your glorious name 

 

I made a lantern fly.

After four lanterns and I don't know how many attempts, finally, a miracle.

Mom and I have been working on the lantern every afternoon and night since yesterday, and I can say that I couldn't have done it with all her help. It would have been so much harder. 

It was a really funny attempt though. 

It was already on my third attempt. I blow-dried the balloon again to get it inflated while mom went to light another candle. She shouted at Michelle during the 2nd attempt because she went under the balloon, and the flame could have fallen on her at any second. Hello, second-degree burns. Haha.

I was holding onto the lantern lightly, and it was funny, because I thought Ate Nini was holding it up higher from the other side. Little did I know that it was already flying. I felt my heart pounce. It went up, up, up! But of course, because of the wooden grid roof we have over our front door, it got stuck there. All of a sudden, the flame went crazy, so there were sparks flying up the roof, finally, the lantern was up in flames. Ate Nini was able to catch it before it turned into ashes. There were bits of ashes and fire flying around everywhere so I had to cover Michelle from the scene. It was crazy, haha. 

There were small flames near the door and the window, and it took a while for them to blow out. My lantern was brought to the grass, where it burned there. Then, Ate Nini dunked water over it, and that was that. 

It was great that I got it to fly, although I wished it hadn't had burned down so I wouldn't have to make a new one altogether. Ohwell. 

I went crazy. Haha. 

I seriously should have filmed that. 

this feeling's got the best of me.

(c) April Baldovino
edited by: me

For some reason, I have to keep asking myself if it’s really over. I feel like despite all the draining rehearsals and disappointments and achievements, everything all at once, it still wasn’t long enough for me to believe that it’s all over now. It’s crazy. How these things, these moments and these people, can keep you so grounded. And it’s crazy how no one ever appreciates these things, not even me, sooner. 

I love every single one of them. We’ve all had our mess-ups during rehearsals and during the entire production, but I still love them, because such a success of a play would never have been so. 

And it’s true, that it’s seen that every single person’s efforts are in it. And through that, we unite. 

I’m happy it’s Christmas break, because I’ve been waiting for this day for sooo long. But I am going to miss them all. 

So yeah, I felt the grad vibes a while ago, and it sucked big time. Not just grad vibes but also college (results)-vibes. Everything’s just going so fast, it’s scary. I think the biggest thing that scares me is that things are going to change. Too much too quickly. 

But praise God, so much, for the successful plays today. Seniors, we will conquer this school year with the Lord holding all of our hands all the way.

don't you worry your pretty mind.

Almost there.
It's almost the end of the year. It's almost the end of the school year. It's almost the end of a whole lot of things for me.
Things, that in truth, behind everything I've been through, I don't want to end.
Sometimes I wonder why things end. And I don't want to hear the statement "So that there can be new beginnings."
It's true, yeah, but really. Why do things have to end? Especially when things are going perfectly. Maybe not in the way that we want to sometimes, but it's comfortable. Fit, and just perfect right where it is, rather than anywhere else.

Ignore this post. It's almost 4:30 over here. I'm still awake and I don't know why. I've been awake for 22 hours. Almost 24, but I don't dare reach that.

I still have to go last minute Christmas shopping for things that I couldn't buy with my mom yesterday haha. And hopefully, I can get my own personal wants/needs too. Unfortunately, though, that means using my own money as well. Ohwell, it's the end of the year, so I can save up again when the new year comes. And this time, I won't spend it all on McDo and Starbucks anymore. It's part of my New Year's Resolution list. Haha!
Speaking of, I'll be posting my New Year's Resolution list hopefully on the 31st of December, depending on what I'm going to be doing at that time.
I've got quite a lot of New Year's Resolutions actually! I think the most I've had ever. Currently, they're less than 20, but I've got a lot more coming.

Happy holidays!
School's almost over :)